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there is suppose to a song lyrics here, when i think of it, i will write it down.
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Tuesday, February 11, 2003
in a foul mood of late. for the past two day, the army schedule is so tight and everyone vent their anger of the tight schedule on us. i hate it when things goes this way. it was obviously a case of poor management by higher authorities and yet we got blame. slim down a lot in 2 days simply because i didn't had time for a proper meal in that duration of time. army sux, army sux big time. i am waiting for an interview with my platoon commander after saying no to ocs and sispec. i hardly had respect for leaders and i that will remain even through army. the problem with many of them is they don't care about their subordinate. those who did and empathise will earn my respect. surprisingly, i seen few of such leaders in schools, and a much higher proportion in army. still not gonna change my stand. everyone is a leader in their own right, you can be at the bottom of the whole population but as long as you can reach out to people, you know ... you're a leader.
field camp coming up soon. yux. I HATE CAMP! army sux again and again. can't stress that enough. each day in army now is nothing but a dread. look at myself in the mirror, i look so thin. ( actually still a bit of fats....BUT I PREFER MYSELF FAT). tianyu at 61kg is so depressing. i felt so sorry for myself but what can i do? everyone talks about welfare for recruits, yeah, definitely, our welfare are protected.... only during ptp phase and only when my platoon commander is around. the young people ( mainly our sergeants) though walked almost the same path as us, are only bent of letting us go through all the suffering they've been through. the platoon commander, though 40 years old, claims that he will be our father in army and he honours that. how i wish he is around day in day out for us.
valentine's day coming up, i was suppose to arrange for some outing with girls this bookout, but i have been rushing like mad in camp for the past 2 day that i don't even have time to contact any gal to get them out. and as you all know my field camp starts on valentine's day. yuckie yuckie. i am so full of complain of army. 2.5 years...of yuckie yuckie life. imagine each time you people tune in to this blog, you see nothing nice from me ( ok...i rarely say nice stuff). there will come a point of time where no one would wanna read the blog anymore.
feeling kinda emotional at the moment. my heart has really feel nothing but vegeance and anger for the past 2 day. thinking back, there is something meaningful about jc which will prove useful. if not for jc, i guess i won't have proper contact with gals until 21. even when i have proper contact, i already feel that guys are gals are 2 world apart. how can we recouncil the 2? as i look through the pictures of some gals i have. sigh... the word fate struck me. how little fate i have with so many gals i know. partially its me ( actually mainly). i have been an oddball and the lousy thing i enjoy being an oddball. how my 18 years of existence has make a fool out of me in terms of my relation with gals. as i spend yet another valentine's day without gal ( i certainly don't take comfort nor would i use army as an excuse), i wonder when the wait officially ends.
posted by Elandriel at 7:33 PM
in a foul mood of late. for the past two day, the army schedule is so tight and everyone vent their anger of the tight schedule on us. i hate it when things goes this way. it was obviously a case of poor management by higher authorities and yet we got blame. slim down a lot in 2 days simply because i didn't had time for a proper meal in that duration of time. army sux, army sux big time. i am waiting for an interview with my platoon commander after saying no to ocs and sispec. i hardly had respect for leaders and i that will remain even through army. the problem with many of them is they don't care about their subordinate. those who did and empathise will earn my respect. surprisingly, i seen few of such leaders in schools, and a much higher proportion in army. still not gonna change my stand. everyone is a leader in their own right, you can be at the bottom of the whole population but as long as you can reach out to people, you know ... you're a leader.
field camp coming up soon. yux. I HATE CAMP! army sux again and again. can't stress that enough. each day in army now is nothing but a dread. look at myself in the mirror, i look so thin. ( actually still a bit of fats....BUT I PREFER MYSELF FAT). tianyu at 61kg is so depressing. i felt so sorry for myself but what can i do? everyone talks about welfare for recruits, yeah, definitely, our welfare are protected.... only during ptp phase and only when my platoon commander is around. the young people ( mainly our sergeants) though walked almost the same path as us, are only bent of letting us go through all the suffering they've been through. the platoon commander, though 40 years old, claims that he will be our father in army and he honours that. how i wish he is around day in day out for us.
valentine's day coming up, i was suppose to arrange for some outing with girls this bookout, but i have been rushing like mad in camp for the past 2 day that i don't even have time to contact any gal to get them out. and as you all know my field camp starts on valentine's day. yuckie yuckie. i am so full of complain of army. 2.5 years...of yuckie yuckie life. imagine each time you people tune in to this blog, you see nothing nice from me ( ok...i rarely say nice stuff). there will come a point of time where no one would wanna read the blog anymore.
feeling kinda emotional at the moment. my heart has really feel nothing but vegeance and anger for the past 2 day. thinking back, there is something meaningful about jc which will prove useful. if not for jc, i guess i won't have proper contact with gals until 21. even when i have proper contact, i already feel that guys are gals are 2 world apart. how can we recouncil the 2? as i look through the pictures of some gals i have. sigh... the word fate struck me. how little fate i have with so many gals i know. partially its me ( actually mainly). i have been an oddball and the lousy thing i enjoy being an oddball. how my 18 years of existence has make a fool out of me in terms of my relation with gals. as i spend yet another valentine's day without gal ( i certainly don't take comfort nor would i use army as an excuse), i wonder when the wait officially ends.
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