tomorrow is the big day, at the lowest point of my life at the moment. simply can't take physical hardship. i think it is only apt of me to recap my last 18 years of my life and hopefully, this website will reach all of them. decide not to post any songs here. will write them in a book which i intend to bring to the library. i shall start with mentioning some names.

primary school was where i truly felt myself, i wasn't restrain in any bit and i always let myself loose. the truth is, as much as i was popular, i didn't have much friends. its more of a case of people admiring me and being envious of all the acheivement which i had. still there are still a few names which pop to mind. wanhui, hehe, surprise your name is here. we were classmate for the first time in primary 3 ( remember?). i must say you have truly moltivated me and provided me all the competition i need in primary school. you should know how much i slack in primary 1 and 2 in a class which don't even come close with giving me a fright and stuff like that. but you have intimadated me since day 1 and it wasn't surprising when i eventually found out you were the top student the year before. 2nd in the list of primary school list people would be catherine. can always remember you as a cheery gal who always laugh ( for no reason). the truth is you are probably the closest gal which come close to grasping my train of thought. i can stil remember the times we had behind the school hall in primary 4 replying to lame letter and being the aunt agony of the class. heck, those were the days. look at us now, sad case but thats beside the point. name no 3: eric chew zhiming. we fell out in primary 5, doubt this site will ever reach you, but if it ever does, the next few lines are dedicated to you. we were indeed big time buddy in primary 4 and 5, if you could remember how often we got into troubles together. competition in table tennis was the main reason for our spilt. i hope at this age, you will certainly look back and feel that it is childish. we really drift far too apart from each other now. i just have to be nasty to say there is no way we could have recounciled after all these years. last name(s) from the primary school section would be kelvin ong and the table tennis team of my batch. if anyone knows who they are, try to direct them to this site. i know all of you have stopped playing table tennis. hope you people are doing well now. remembering the time we used to have, i realise i spent the most time with you people. we have spoilt one whole regime of table tennis...COOL...training used to be so much more serious till we took over. good thing the coach can tolerate it. and to tan paey fern, your hardwork has not gone to waste. you have quite a commendable achievement in table tennis. yeah no doubt you have neglected your studies in the process, but i feel for all that sacrfice, it is worth it. i rather be doing i like and earning less out of it than to earn big money. the most important decision is made from the heart not the brain.

now for ri days. to cheewei and jack: you people brought music into my life and pulled me into a world of my own. the truth is both of you probably have the greatest influence on my life, something which never admit to. the truth is i rarely meet people of your maturity and you people seriously has got me thinking about alot of things. i am what i am today because of you, and as much as other people do not like me. what matter is i like myself. to yenlin: actually, we rarely chat about affair of the heart, we often crap. and the truth is jack and cheewei has kinda convinced me that crapping is a waste of time. i am incline to say that friendship between us only grew after we graduate from ri. thats fine by me, its never to late to be friends and stuff like that. what you said on the phone that day will always be remembered. to matthew: haiz, i was kinda sad with you. trying hard to be understanding here but i can't help but feel hopelessness in our friendship. i dunno if you got the same feelings too. but all i want to let you know is frenship needs time to sustain it, like it or not. i dun wanna see us becoming strangers...but at the point in time, i dunno where we are actually heading...
eugene: the outing really gave me the biggest hope i need. i feel so indebted to you. i have always spend my time ego tripping and i hadn't really tried to know what is going on in you and yet you are always there for me. i dunno if you feel this, but you ought to have more confidence, you are a nice person. given your capability and character, you will definitely make it far out in life.